by Sylvia Math
I could tell he thought I was younger than I was, and so when he got that adorable predatory look men get, when he started to strategize, I accepted it as a challenge. I was going to draw it out, take him on a wild ride called “I’m Not An Ingenue.” But I made such a good honey- tractioned trap that I got stuck in it too.
by Sylvia Math
What was strange about how I met him wasn’t just that it was unusual in and of itself, but also that of all the many ways we might have met, that was how it happened. We knew people in common. We went to the same parties and events. We had likely seen each other before; it seemed impossible that we had not. Except that I always seem to attract notice so probably not. He would have remembered. I have some weird quality of presence and stick out and people notice and remember me; I never get away with anything. There’s always a witness. But it was possible, we decided, that we were in dark readings at KGB bar a bunch of times together, where it’s too dark & crowded to make or receive an impression. That was the most likely explanation. We had to talk about it; rifle through the possibilities, worry the subject. There’s always something a little uncanny & compelling about meeting someone who for sure you should have already met; a sneaking suspicion that you passed by each other; that photos of this or that event you were at would depict the other one of you in the background, undetected…yet. There all along.